My Reset Button

last-supper-altar-front-featured-w740x493What is it about being Catholic that’s so special to me? Is it that I just needed something to latch onto, a set of rituals to make my own and embrace? Why does it seem to “correct” so much of what I always struggled with?

At Holy Thursday, battling tears and a three-year-old boy, I realized what it is.

“Communion should be our reset button,” Father said in his homily. “Sin is selfishness, and communion resets us.” (Mind you, I’m paraphrasing.)

In the last few years, I’ll be honest: I’ve had some real struggles with my faith. I would have quit. I would have walked away. I would have thrown it to the wind as a failed experiment.

But I couldn’t.

Aside from the familial pressure, there’s also the matter of the “reset” I get at every Mass.

“If it wasn’t for the Eucharist, I wouldn’t be Catholic!” I told a good friend recently. I was complaining about something-or-other and couldn’t help but see all the green grass just beyond the fence of my Catholic faith.

But you know what? It’s just fertilized differently, not better. Have I gotten so used to the green on my side of the fence that I can’t appreciate it any longer? Am I really serious when I feel like it’s all for naught?

Well yes, there is part of me that’s serious, but Drama Sarah can go back to bed. The minute she’s sitting there, at the foot of the cross with me during Mass, she’s aware of just what she needs.

And it’s not to leave.

It’s to be reset.


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  1. “In the last few years, I’ll be honest: I’ve had some real struggles with my faith. I would have quit. I would have walked away. I would have thrown it to the wind as a failed experiment.
    But I couldn’t.”
    Sarah your words are my words~ I can’t quit and although at times I am foolishly beligerant ~ I am also so very grateful. I have a God Who won’t give up on me and I play on the team that drafted me. AMEN!

  2. Yes! A reset button. That is SO spot on. This weekend was a tough one for me. Following Easter Vigil I just wanted to throw myself on the floor at the foot of the cross. I needed that reset button.

  3. I am truly Blessed in that my Faith has always been very strong and I have always turned to the Church in times of struggle, like when my mother died when I was 15 and I had to go out on my own. Then when my husband died of cancer and left me with our 2 small children to raise. The Holy Eucharist is everything to me! It’s God’s Promise to us and I will never leave Him – ever! My suggestion to those who maybe in doubt, spend some time in Adoration. Devote yourself to some Bible study and get active in your local Church. (RCIA is a good one!) And, Pray for those who are struggling with their Faith.

  4. Sarah, all I can say is – amen! I have said that many times – it is the Eucharist that keeps me Catholic. “My reset button” is a great way to remember that!

  5. Sarah, I had no idea you struggled with your Catholic faith; like so many others – both cradle Catholics and converts – there seems to be that battle. I suppose I personally went through that struggle in college and reconciled myself to my “issues” with the Catholic Church. And today I am at peace; I couldn’t imagine myself being anything other than Catholic. I wish you would share more about what you have struggled with! 🙂

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