An Abortionist’s Nightmare

Fr. Frank Pavone

An Abortionist’s Nightmare
by Father Frank Pavone
National Director, Priests for Life

Dr. McArthur Hill used to kill babies for a living. Now he has repented. At a conference of former abortionists a few years ago, he shared the nightmares he had:

“In my nightmares I would deliver a healthy newborn baby and I would take that healthy newborn baby and I would hold it up, and I would face a jury of faceless people and ask them to tell me what to do with this baby. They would go thumbs-up or thumbs-down and if they made a thumbs-down indication then I was to drop the baby into a bucket of water which was present. I never did reach the point of dropping the baby into the bucket because I’d always wake up at that point. But it was clear to me then that there was something going on in my mind, subconsciously.”

I have helped abortionists make the transition from killing babies to repentance, and can attest that Dr. Hill’s experience is not uncommon. In fact, his nightmare reveals some common aspects of the suffering of abortionists.

Notice, first of all, that Dr. Hill has in his hands a “healthy newborn baby.” Abortions are done on healthy unborn babies, but in this nightmare, the doctor’s conscience is reminding him that a baby is a baby, and that the lies of abortion propagandists who try to make the public think that abortion is only done for “health reasons” are exactly that – lies.

More significant still is the fact that the abortionist is holding the baby up in front of a group of people. What happened to the “private, personal” nature of abortion? Abortionists know better. It’s a public industry, a public battle, and like it or not, the world has its eyes on them. They are committing that wrong which humanity itself, in the judgment of history, knows to be the same wrong that constitutes genocide and holocausts. Yes, this “private” act is really as public as can be.

The abortion propagandists try to paint this issue as “a woman’s choice and hers alone.” But the abortionist’s nightmare tells us a different story. The mother is absent. It is society, represented by a jury of his peers, that is making the choice. This represents both the abortionist’s resentment as well as his attempt to evade responsibility. “It’s not that I favor killing babies,” many abortionists will say. “It’s that either I provide this service or someone else will do so, in a less professional way. Society has made this choice available, which is a good thing, but somebody has to carry it out.”

Finally, the jury is “faceless.” Of course it is. Nobody wants to claim responsibility for legal abortion. Legislators blame the courts; judges blame precedent; others blame the “law of the land.”

It’s time for the abortionist’s nightmare to wake us all up! Now is the time for us to put our own face on this issue, and claim responsibility to break through the faceless crowd and declare, “The killing stops here! I will no longer be silent!”

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About the Author

National Director, Priests for Life Father Frank Pavone is a native New Yorker who was ordained in 1988 by Cardinal John O’Connor. He is a priest of the Amarillo Diocese in Texas and serves full-time in pro-life leadership with his bishop’s permission. In 1993 he became national director of Priests for Life. He is also the president of the National Pro-life Religious Council, and the national pastoral director of Rachel’s Vineyard, the world’s largest ministry of healing after abortion. He travels throughout the country preaching and teaching against abortion. He lived in Rome for two years while serving on the Pontifical Council for the Family, and recently was appointed to the Pontifical Academy for Life. In 2005, he was present at the bedside of Terri Schiavo as she was dying and was an outspoken advocate for her life. He was invited by members of the Class of 2009 at Notre Dame to lead an alternate commencement ceremony for those students who refused to attend the ceremony in which President Obama was honored. Father Pavone has received the “Proudly Pro-life Award” by the National Right to Life Committee, and numerous other pro-life awards and honorary doctorates. Norma McCorvey, the “Jane Roe” of the Supreme Court’s Roe vs. Wade abortion decision, has described him as “the catalyst that brought me into the Catholic Church.”

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3 Comments

  1. Fr. Pavone,

    May God continue to bless your work and may we all find the courage and the voice to join you in the spiritual battle of our time.

  2. Gentlemen,
    I have commented before and felt I was not correctly understood. I am trying again.

    This question of abortion is very much a thorny issue however, it is my humble opinion that everyone, both pro-choice and pro-life continue to look at the issue from only one angle. Albert Einstein supposedly said, “The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”

    If I may be so bold as offer what I consider to be a different slant; my final word.

    http://wqebelle.blogspot.com/2010/09/abortion-my-final-word-on-unwanted.html

    Deacon Bickerstaff, this is where “we first met”.
    http://www.integratedcatholiclife.org/2010/04/against-abortion-but-pro-choice/#respond

    I wish you and the author all the best. In our own ways, we are all just trying to make the world a better place. God bless.

    W. Q. Belle

  3. William,

    No matter what words you use, there is no debate about the science. From the moment of human conception there exists a new human life distinct from its parents. It will never grow into a dog, cat or elephant. It will never become a rose or ear of corn. The moral imperative to protect that innocent human life is not dependent on that baby’s dependence on its mother.

    That life is a gift from God. He created that life for himself. He gave it dignity. He values it, even if you do not.

    Deacon Mike

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